Closing of a Chapter

My heart is full tonight and the hour is late, but I thought I should wright down some thoughts that I have been having. I am very sad about this closing chapter that I or I guess I should say we, (Larry and I)are about to do.
We have decided that we need to let the house in St. George go. This is the house that my boys have known as home for the last 14 or 15 years, (not sure when we moved in for sure hum). This house a so many great memories of the boys growing up and all the friends that they had over all the time. The sleep overs, fun times in the back yard, climbing the great tree that is in our back yard, (They still like to climb it). The house also has special meaning for me as this is the last place that our Jeffrey was at. I have really had a hard time with this because I have always felt that as long as we have this house I still have a part of Jeffrey with me, and now that will be gone. It also gave me a tie to St. George.
I know that my place is to be with Larry and at this time he feels like Donnelly Idaho is the place that he needs to be. We have lived apart for almost 5 years until this last year and I finally gave up my job and went to live in Idaho with him. This has been good for us and something that I finally needed to do. Larry has been very supportive of me and pretty much let me do what I needed to do with staying and letting Michael finish school here and then Kody and Erica had our first grandson and of course I wanted to stay here and be around for all his firsts. Then there was always something, work needed me or what ever. But last March 2009 we both decided it was time for me to be there.
I always hoped that we would still be able to keep house in St. George. but it is not in the books at this time. I have really had to put my mind in another place and try to get through this but I guess this was the day that I finally have to face it. I know it is just a house and that we can take all the memories with us and that Jeffrey is always with me. I know that in my mind but my heart is not ready to accept it.
Over the last 23 years of living in St. George, we have made some awesome friends that have become like our family, (since we did not have family in this area). I think that I am going to miss them the most. They are like my sisters and such wonderful examples to me. I love them all.
Two of our boy have meet wonderful girls who have wonderful families and those families have taken our sons in and made them feel like they belong to their families. I am so very grateful for this and I know that they will be OK in St. George with out us. I will miss them and their families very much, but we are only 12 hours away! (I know it is a long way) but always a phone call away.
I hope that Larry is able to continue with the building that he started up in Idaho when the economy picks up. I also know in my mind that he is only doing what he feels is right for us at this time. (again I just wish that my heart could wrap around this), in time I am sure it will.
So for now I will continue to go through years of stuff in this house and move on to a new chapter in our life.